Rest....

All I ask for is a day of rest.... Just one day.. 1 day of time for myself....1 bloody guiltless day.....just 1 day..... I need to REST..i need to breathe... i want space, i want MY bloody time!!!!! do what I wanna do!!! Have plenty of time to spend time with God, without having to rush here and there!!! with my heart not angered, or irritated, complaining throughout my conversation with Him....

JUST GIVE ME 1 bloody day to myself!!! Haih.........

Klang.

Klang Bak Kut Teh!!! and we had it for breakfast!!! Klang ppl are weird man.... but hey.. i still love them!! This was one of the best Bak Kut Teh's ever!!! it tasted soooo good. Beautiful mix of herbs, meat tender enough (without the yucky fat) the tastesall blended in so well.... i shall never forget it man!! Thank you Audrey's dad!! or should I say Mr Chan? Uncle Chan? Haha! anyway( His wine chiken is THE BOMB by the way!!! way to go Uncle!!

OOHH!! beautiful Veggie!!! Yum Yum!!

This was the super duper tasty Dry Bak Kut Teh!!! it was soooooo goood k.. havent tasted sth like this before... i so reccommend you to try it.

Kerry and Karen at the Bak Kut teh shop.

Kerry and I at the Bak Kut Teh shop.

Audrey....

Swee Wei..

Audrey (Maki) and I on the KTM to SUbang Jaya After bak kut teh.

all of us in celebrity fitness in Subang parade

Our station...

The night before.....

In Berkely...

the place where we 'da pao' or packed home fried porrigdge!! fried porridge!! haha! that's like.. so cool! it was good....

while waiting...

of course lah we cam whored...

hehe...

In Kerry's house.....

Swei...

Maki..

Karen and Swei..

Kerry..

the games we were playing....

what i was doing while waiting for my turn..

It was so super FUN!!!!!!!

Apart from sleeping on the floor, thus waking with a very bad back-ache, and no pain -killers to help, visiting Giresh, meeting Kerry and Audrey's families, trying new foods, tasting wonderful home -cooked foods, seeing Klang, spending time with friends, playing PS 2, promoting events with friends, it was all superb!! BUT awfully tiring....

Thank you Kerry!!!

the sweet smell of Holiday...(study break)...hahah! yeah rite..

It's 1 week of pure HOLIDAY!! nah.. actually it's supposed to be study break, but i need this rest so bad, that i think studying will only come in during the last few days.. hehe... sorry lah.. but i need to relax man... the sem's been so kaw gila busy and stressful ok... i need relaxation.... time of my own to spend with God...my personal vacation with my heavenly Daddy..

I have always loved doing art work. it gives me such joy and peace. :) This is for the PHUNK project. i dont know if it'll sell, but i sure did have fun doing it!! wahahah!

Bah.

please please do shoot me NOW !!!!! ..... please...

Cotton Club singers are good.....oh how i love that kinda music... and despite what people say about Kenny G, i still LOVE and adore his music!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRRiA5jX0TQ

Somebody please shoot me now......

Choices??

To choose between pleasing God and pleasing man.... obviously...God...
To choose between serving God or making sacrifices..... obviously...God....
God and Man?? why do I even ask? God God God. No one else but God. My life is God's alone, and God is the centre of my life... only God do i trust. God will NEVER forsake me, nor will he ever hurt me. God will never take advantage of me or 'misuse' me. Only with God can i be myself...only with God is it safe to break any walls of self-protection. God is my one and only...and until he provides me with my soulmate will i ever let this wall down again. For now, God is my everything.


chioces chioces choices....
don't we all 'love' them....
sigh....
a sigh of relief or a sigh of sadness?
a sigh of pain or a sigh of happiness?

*SIGH*

Smile and move on with life. God is in control. As long as I live my life the way God wants me to....i want my conscience to be clear... I want to be free from bondage.. from lies and from unpleasant things.... It's so much easier to be niave... but for now... I have to be 'street smart' as dad calls it.. wake up and live in reality..not in my own world....Get work done,and stop any procrastination....Convent Girl mode i call it...

Get to work Ms. Chhoa!!

To: Ms Denise Chhoa Teng Nee

Personal note to self :
1. NO means NO. no comprimise for many things. no is no.
2. Dont be so niave you silly girl!! *Slap myself on the head* Learn from your mistakes!!
3. There are rules for a reason.
4. Procrastination is never an option.

Learn Denise, Learn.... dont keep making the same mistakes... silly girl....

Lord, I have realised my mistakes and I want to change. Thank you for the realisation of the mistakes and now give me the courage to overcome it. Only by your strength will I be able to do this. I surrender everything into Your hands. Thank you my loving Father, Amen.

Condolences

My deepest condolences to Jacqueline Rowena and her family with regards to the death of her dear cousin. May he rest in peace..

Love you Jac..hugs...

Keep turning the pages...each one's different..

One day you are conservative, responsible, the perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect friend....then the next minute you're feeling rebelious, singing your heart out on a public bus, in front of people and strangers, doing things your parents dont approve of, slack and procrastinate in your work, let friends down.

One minute you're brave and well composed, next you're crying your eyes out......

One minute you're scared of learning a new instrument, of failing, of letting people hear your mistakes, next, you're actually enjoying learning the instrument, craving for more of it......

One minute you're determined to change, next, you dont care...one minute you love your life, next you hate it....

One minute you feel God in your life, the next you feel so empty.....

One minute you feel beautiful, then you turn around and you see such an ugly person in the mirror....

One minute you greet people so confidently and un-shyly, next you're walking with your head down, eyes in the floor...

One minute you dont care bout culture, next, it becomes so important....

One minute you make sure your diet is follwed, next you stuff your face with food...

One minute you tell yourself something is wrong, next you're doing it, and it's feels fun and right...

One minte you feel so alive, next you feel so dead tired....

One minute everything seems right, next, it's so wrong.....

So who am I actually? What am I? Which am I?? Why cant I just have one type of personality? Why not either, or? Do I want to have one personality? Would it be boring?

Haih.... I think it's just best to love what God has made me, created me to be...the gifts He's blessed me with, the family He's put me into, the friends He's given me. I should take my mistakes and learn from them...I should slap myself into reality.. open my eyes to the world beyond Denise.... change my views and perspectives of life....stop being so selfish... the world doesn't revolve around me right??

But I cant carry everyone else's monkey... I'm not strong enough..

OH NO!!!! uh!!! I'm doing it agian!!!!

OH GOD!!!! please, please.... HELP ME!!!!!

I dont even know who I am.....