Sunday, February 27, 2011

A thought, an enlightenment, a challenge

If you could live again, how will you live it?

I pray for you with love, faith and hope.


Friday, February 25, 2011

Together forever?

Is it possible to love someone beyond words but not want to, or feel scared to marry them?


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Once again,

15/2/11 Once again, I am yours. I am truly happy. I am me :)

You have given me such joy, made me feel loved and special.

I love you :) Thank you for loving me too :)

Your Bum Bum

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Hello Melbourne!

I'm here! It's all so exciting! so overwhelming! But alas, I really miss home, I really miss him, I really miss familiarity.

I am grateful, so so grateful that I am here, and I know I will soon enjoy it. Just not yet. Soon, but not yet :)


Tuesday, February 15, 2011


D : Why does tomorrow have to be Wednesday? :(

S : Because Wednesday comes ofter Tuesday :)

The world through his blue eyes


"A marriage is being able to do what you want in life, knowing that at the end of the day, there's that special someone who loves you."

-Shaneil Ramon Devaser-

Monday, February 14, 2011

Because I do believe in the celebration of love - Valentines

I love you. I love that I can spend my Valentines smiling at the thought of you. Thank you for wanting me, thank you for loving me, thank you for choosing me, and thank you for hoping and seeing a life with me.

Valentines has never been more meaningful, our relationship has never been so precious than it is today.

It shouldn't have taken so long and so many stupid mistakes for us to get here, but it did, and now we're here :)

I cannot say I hope that we'll live happily ever after because I don't know. Plans change all the time.

But this I do know, today, right here, right now, I love you with everything I have in me and more.

And the best part is, I know for sure you feel it too, I know you are happy with me :)

Your Bum Bum

Sunday, February 13, 2011

They say everyone needs a second chance.

Dear child,

There are times when I hate you. When I wish I could rub it so hard in your face, so hard that you'd rather die and face burning in hell for eternity rather than what you feel now, feel 10 times the pain I went through... There are the times...

But what for? Who does that make me? What will I accomplish?

At the end of the day, what for? It gets me no where.

Nothing and No Where at all.

Lord, will you please please help me to forgive? I need it so bad.

Your pleading child,

Saturday, February 12, 2011


Friday, February 11, 2011

Dear you,

I love you


Thursday, February 10, 2011

Some mistakes just shouldn't be made

My Darling,

"The only reason I would never change the past is because I can't."
"The only reason I don't regret what happened is because it wouldn't or couldn't change anything."
But if I could change it, I would. Believe me, I would. I'd give anything to be sacred to you again. I'd give anything to have you sacred to me.

Some mistakes are never worth making.

Because forever, no matter how much we forgive and choose to move forward, that one fraction of the past will always haunt us, will always leave that slight wall between us.

What is love without trust? How can we forgive if there is no assurance? Faith - as foolish as man is, one will not put his faith on something or someone they cannot trust.

So what are we to do? Do you know? Because I don't, not really.

All we have is hope, love and trust, but the greatest of these is love.


Wednesday, February 9, 2011


I hate packing because it means saying goodbye... for real


Saturday, February 5, 2011

I am human

Maybe I'm scared of being around anyone that makes me feel vulnerable. I'm tired of having to pick myself up over and over again. It's a painful process.


Sometimes I want to run away from you...


Friday, February 4, 2011

But... I really allowed to be happy?